Is it actually me?

I've noticed today nearly EVERYONE has a problem with me. This isn't me being a little emo bitch, it's truth :/

We will start at home. Every day somebody in this house finds something to pick at, or complain about, or tell me off for. Mothers always moaning at me for being "messy" or "short tempered" or "irritating". I'm sorry but a pile of papers on the floor of my bedroom does not make a "shit-tip".

Then there's my dad. He just plain doesn't like me. Yeah he does stuff for me, but he doesn't "like" me- he's always got some complaint or criticism. Didn't get in Uni? Did no work. Playing a game? Been in bed all day. Hug a male friend? Get accused of being a homo. Hug multiple male friends? Get accused of being a closet homosexual. Go to visit a friend you know and trust? Irresponsible and rash. Well you aren't perfect either.

My sister gets really irritated by me, an I don't know why. It's not like I'm pratting around 24/7, I just like a laugh now again. To be honest, she's got better now so I'll leave her alone.

My dad's family don't even talk to me, we go visit them and they just sit watching TV in deathly silence. If that isn't awkward enough they gave me £20 for my 18th birthday... 5 months after my birthday.

Then there are friends. I'll admit I've never been great with friends. I always manage to lose them one way or another. Whether it be betrayal, arguments, personality clashes, lies, or just drifting- I always manage to fuck up a friendship. Luckily I think I've found at least 3 friends I will manage to keep now, but the others will no doubt drift in time. Especially as I'm irritating to them too.

What really bothers me though is that nobody explains. Why do they find me irritating? Why do they disagree? Why did they stab me in the back completely? Why, when I warn them about a backstabbing bitch, do they not even listen to my evidence?

Anyway, enough of this :) I'm going I see Matty in 21 days :D I'm really excited, I haven't seen him in nearly a month and I miss him like mad :') No, Dad, that doesn't make me a homo it makes me a good friend. Sorry if I actually care about people, I know it's a foreign concept to like, any of your family.

Anyway :) I'm in a better mood now I have that off my chest- have a good night reader(s)